Addict
Addict : Stones (1998)

1. Dust
I just lost my best friend
I miss you so much I wish my life would end
I cannot get up from down here
I cried until dust appeared
I'm trying to let go
'Cause it hurts like I've ever been hurt before
And it feels like I'll never smile again
I cannot sleep without you there
All I wanted was to be with you everywhere
Let me quietly fade away
The best part of me left today
I'm trying to let go
'Cause it hurts like I've never been hurt before
And it feels like I'll never smile again
I miss you so much I wish my life would end
I cannot get up from down here
I cried until dust appeared
I'm trying to let go
'Cause it hurts like I've ever been hurt before
And it feels like I'll never smile again
I cannot sleep without you there
All I wanted was to be with you everywhere
Let me quietly fade away
The best part of me left today
I'm trying to let go
'Cause it hurts like I've never been hurt before
And it feels like I'll never smile again
2. Monster side
If I had another chance
I would peacefully advance
But as I'm fated to be here
Resigned and ridden by my fear
I should love myself but my vanity
Love's someone else
I am the best there is
Until all there is
Is hot air
Unfulfilled I take it out on you
Because you care
And because I love you
I expect you to be there
I just can't hide my monster side
I can't control the loss I feel
The loss I feel
I would peacefully advance
But as I'm fated to be here
Resigned and ridden by my fear
I should love myself but my vanity
Love's someone else
I am the best there is
Until all there is
Is hot air
Unfulfilled I take it out on you
Because you care
And because I love you
I expect you to be there
I just can't hide my monster side
I can't control the loss I feel
The loss I feel
3. All change
The trouble is that you think you've time
Enough to waste enough to embrace
Enough to let you just talk about what you will do
Totally lost, fully undone
How do you change what you've become
It's all change now
Do the best you know how
When desire ends
Peace will come again
So do it now, do it well
Tomorrow all will have changed again
Be awake be amazed
Be a guest at the best parade
For it's all change now
Do the best you know how
When desire ends
Peace will come again
Enough to waste enough to embrace
Enough to let you just talk about what you will do
Totally lost, fully undone
How do you change what you've become
It's all change now
Do the best you know how
When desire ends
Peace will come again
So do it now, do it well
Tomorrow all will have changed again
Be awake be amazed
Be a guest at the best parade
For it's all change now
Do the best you know how
When desire ends
Peace will come again
4. Red bird
I've been dreaming of a red bird
And the peace of its gentle wings
It's an omen of better things
I've been waking with the same pain
That makes me want to sleep
And dream of a red bird
So build us a nest, for I've chosen to leave
For I am so heavy here
Come to me tonight and I'll be waiting
With my wings
I will of left the weight behind me that
The blood of men brings
Where there once was despair
Tonight I will be free
And the slings and the stones that uncovered
My bones will have flown my memory
I've been dreaming of a red bird
It sings of a way out, it sings of release
It's been tapping on my window
To remind me it's waiting
And that I have a choice
So build us a nest, for I've chosen to leave
For I am so heavy here
Take me away from here
I am not equipped for such strain
Take away the fear
How do you prepare for the pain
Now I'm leaving with the red bird
And as my arms leak again
I am so happy here
And the peace of its gentle wings
It's an omen of better things
I've been waking with the same pain
That makes me want to sleep
And dream of a red bird
So build us a nest, for I've chosen to leave
For I am so heavy here
Come to me tonight and I'll be waiting
With my wings
I will of left the weight behind me that
The blood of men brings
Where there once was despair
Tonight I will be free
And the slings and the stones that uncovered
My bones will have flown my memory
I've been dreaming of a red bird
It sings of a way out, it sings of release
It's been tapping on my window
To remind me it's waiting
And that I have a choice
So build us a nest, for I've chosen to leave
For I am so heavy here
Take me away from here
I am not equipped for such strain
Take away the fear
How do you prepare for the pain
Now I'm leaving with the red bird
And as my arms leak again
I am so happy here
5. Heavy
Rejoice for what is coming
Smile for we are one
You are part of my future
And that's as bright as they come
In your company I'm quickened
I move inwards whe we speak
We're all heavy with instruction
We're all fragile in defeat
I know the measure of a good man
You were the first to qualify
All that's ever had potential
To be beautiful you and I
Smile for we are one
You are part of my future
And that's as bright as they come
In your company I'm quickened
I move inwards whe we speak
We're all heavy with instruction
We're all fragile in defeat
I know the measure of a good man
You were the first to qualify
All that's ever had potential
To be beautiful you and I
6. Teenage angel
She's in love
But she doesn't know what she needs
Or how to let go.
It feels like being married.
She was too young to miscarry.
She says "Bye bye my childhood dream man
I will keep in touch if I can spent the best years of my life with you!"
Happens every time you start to lose yourself
You turn to blame the one that loves you the most,
To stay and work it out is harder than to run away
So she leaves a note because to his face
She couldn't say "Bye, bye my teenage angel.
I don't know how the spell was broken.
I don't know what I'm doing but I'll miss you!"
But she doesn't know what she needs
Or how to let go.
It feels like being married.
She was too young to miscarry.
She says "Bye bye my childhood dream man
I will keep in touch if I can spent the best years of my life with you!"
Happens every time you start to lose yourself
You turn to blame the one that loves you the most,
To stay and work it out is harder than to run away
So she leaves a note because to his face
She couldn't say "Bye, bye my teenage angel.
I don't know how the spell was broken.
I don't know what I'm doing but I'll miss you!"
7. Caned
Long face lines trace the time
Memories that you hold dear
Swear you've been blessed by years
Routine that's kept you here
So long, so long
Strong, how much stronger, stronger than me
Pull a little harder
Until you pull free
Caned young to stop the bend
Up before the world awakes
Won't leave your home behind
Bones like leviathans of pride
Inside, inside
Strong, how much stronger you always were
Pull a little harder
You're almost there
We all harbour prejudice
We all want more than we have
But when it all fades away
Underneath we are the same
Strong, how much stronger, stronger than me
Pull a little harder
Until you pull free
Strong, how much stronger, you always were
Pull a little harder
You're almost there (x 2)
Memories that you hold dear
Swear you've been blessed by years
Routine that's kept you here
So long, so long
Strong, how much stronger, stronger than me
Pull a little harder
Until you pull free
Caned young to stop the bend
Up before the world awakes
Won't leave your home behind
Bones like leviathans of pride
Inside, inside
Strong, how much stronger you always were
Pull a little harder
You're almost there
We all harbour prejudice
We all want more than we have
But when it all fades away
Underneath we are the same
Strong, how much stronger, stronger than me
Pull a little harder
Until you pull free
Strong, how much stronger, you always were
Pull a little harder
You're almost there (x 2)
8. Underneath
Last night I saw the face of God
But waking I'd forgotten who she was
Now I understand the power of love
Now I know nothing is all I've understood
I want to know the truth
But then again what's the use
I'm so confused
I've all the answers just too much to lose
And I need to know what I believe
I feel I've a child underneath
Underneath
But waking I'd forgotten who she was
Now I understand the power of love
Now I know nothing is all I've understood
I want to know the truth
But then again what's the use
I'm so confused
I've all the answers just too much to lose
And I need to know what I believe
I feel I've a child underneath
Underneath
9. Nobody knows
All designed for my downfall
Fortified but for how long
Everything I want nothing I need
Poverty is hard wealth's a disease
In control I'm not in control
Stranglehold
Nobody knows the trouble I'm in
Happiness is wafer thin
I'm in love until I'm not
Less content the more I've got
Play too much to want to stop
All that's good I've given up
Takes a while to realise
Mischief does what love defies
In control, I'm not in control
Swallowed whole
Fortified but for how long
Everything I want nothing I need
Poverty is hard wealth's a disease
In control I'm not in control
Stranglehold
Nobody knows the trouble I'm in
Happiness is wafer thin
I'm in love until I'm not
Less content the more I've got
Play too much to want to stop
All that's good I've given up
Takes a while to realise
Mischief does what love defies
In control, I'm not in control
Swallowed whole
10. Stones
It's just like you to cause a scene
It's just like me to tell tales
I know it weighs heavy
But it doesn't have to be this way
Just let the stones fall from their slings
You know you can throw sharper things
Just let the pain fold away
You'll slip your chains sooner that way
What comes down to burden you
Is just like a test that never fails
And I know it's hard for you
But you don't see the beauty that I see
Just let the stones fall from their slings
You know you can throw sharper things
Just let the pain fold away
You'll slip your chains sooner that way
And I will be the last one down
For I see more than just a noose
Allow me to show you what I mean
Just take my hand it's alright
I know you're weak from all you fight
Just let the fear of it all
Trouble you no more
It's just like me to tell tales
I know it weighs heavy
But it doesn't have to be this way
Just let the stones fall from their slings
You know you can throw sharper things
Just let the pain fold away
You'll slip your chains sooner that way
What comes down to burden you
Is just like a test that never fails
And I know it's hard for you
But you don't see the beauty that I see
Just let the stones fall from their slings
You know you can throw sharper things
Just let the pain fold away
You'll slip your chains sooner that way
And I will be the last one down
For I see more than just a noose
Allow me to show you what I mean
Just take my hand it's alright
I know you're weak from all you fight
Just let the fear of it all
Trouble you no more
11. Black hole
You can't deny what you are
You are a part of a star like me
We will return there one day soon (x 2)
You are a part of a star like me
We will return there one day soon (x 2)
12. Abused
Won't take me home, I'm sweetness to the bone
I'm silken and discret, amiable and cheap
Meat for you to pound, to beat and smack around
Holes for you to fill with anything you will
But I won't apologize for the things that I do
I am victimized but so are you.
There is nothing I've not seen. I'm bruised but I'm clean
If you're turned off by my tracks just get up on my back
I'm prouder than you'd guess, I'm honest more or less
For I will not pretend, I'll never be your friend
And I won't apologize for the things that I do
I am victimized but so are you
And I don't apologize for the means that I choose
You're as compromised as I am abused
Love knows these lips, never kissed before
And at my fingertips are the secrets of a whore
Bring to me your lust
You're cursed and you are weak
In myself I trust
In my bed you leak
I'm silken and discret, amiable and cheap
Meat for you to pound, to beat and smack around
Holes for you to fill with anything you will
But I won't apologize for the things that I do
I am victimized but so are you.
There is nothing I've not seen. I'm bruised but I'm clean
If you're turned off by my tracks just get up on my back
I'm prouder than you'd guess, I'm honest more or less
For I will not pretend, I'll never be your friend
And I won't apologize for the things that I do
I am victimized but so are you
And I don't apologize for the means that I choose
You're as compromised as I am abused
Love knows these lips, never kissed before
And at my fingertips are the secrets of a whore
Bring to me your lust
You're cursed and you are weak
In myself I trust
In my bed you leak